I'm suffering now without my Tigger. All morning all i thought was him. Not even Arsenal's 5-0 can make me happy. Not even after watching the goals for a millionth time :'( I gotta make my decision fast and right now, all i can think is that i gotta let him go. I dont wanna further torture him with all my ridiculous demands and attitude anymore. I dont want to be the person who is gonna block his future. I know his future is not with me. He belongs with someone who can make him happy all the time. Someone who can care for him and be with him no matter what. Someone who knows what to do when facing fucked up situations like this. And i know that someone is not me. It will never be me. All i think about is myself. Maybe "some" people are right. I dont deserve him. I dont deserve to be with anybody because of my character. He might think that i dont love him anymore but i actually just dont want to make him suffer anymore. I do love him. I love him very much. More than anything in this world. But sometimes we just take for granted many things and this is one of it :'(