So Arsenal appealed to the FA with regards to the Vermaelen's red. Apparently it was an "obvious goal-scoring opportunity".. Geezzzz. -_____- I still think it doesnt warrant a red. Yellow, MAYBE.... But a red with a penalty is just too much... Anyhoos, as everyone suspected, the appeal was dismissed but good news is he's only banned for the Birmingham game.. Phewww... Many predicted that the appeal will be dismissed AND probably add another game but luckily that did not happen as it was not a frivalous appeal... Now with this situation, it means that either Sol will be paired up with Silvestre (!!!) or Song with Silvestre (!!! again).. With Gallas out with injury, Tommy V for suspension, and Sol (maybe) rested for Barca, Arsene's choice might show which he would prefer, CL or PL cos if he rests Sol that probably means that CL is more important to him. I like the idea of Song over there to cover in defense since he showed GREAT defending skills during WHU. I'm a lil worried over Silvestre though. To me, he hasnt prove himself to be in the first team and i just hope that he will do his best for Birmingham.

Other than that, there are really not much in the news which is so boring for me.. There's nothing i would want than to read news bout my team. Of course, shitty news created by unprofessional journalism is not counted like the recent AA23 "news". Made me sick to my stomach that someone wants to create something outta nothing especially at these times when we should be focusing on every game. It was reported that AA23 told press that we wont win the title this year because we still havent bought any star players.. It was then discovered that this interview was 1 year ago and he didnt really say that we wont win the title... Anyway malas la i wanna talk about it.. Melemahkan semangat only...

Nothing else interesting really happening in my life.. Wake up early, go to work, come back, cook dinner, then sleep. That's my life everyday. Oh yeah sice my laptop is sent for repair, i'll come to office to watch the game. Ooooopssss sorry boss... No choice la...

Red, Titi and Water!!

Tigger came last Saturday at about 2pm -_- We went to Sunway Pyramid and then went to find a hotel nearby. We wanted to watch Alice in Wonderland but all tickets were sold out! Boooo.... So we just hang out, have dinner and went back to sleep. He promised that we could go to a nearby mamak to watch the Arsenal v WHU game at 1.30am so we woke up at 1am, wash up and go find a mamak.. By the time we arrived to a suitable mamak, it was already about 10 minutes into the game and we were leading 1-0!! Goal by Denilson... I hope with this goal, he will find confidence when palying and will improve himself more.. This game marked the return of our Captain Fab-tastic!! The game was quite exciting during the 1st with a few decent chances but we just couldnt find more goals.. Then just before the half time, my Thomas Vermaelen was sent off for "denying a goal-scoring opportunity" -_____- It was a foul which warrant a red card. His eyes were on the ball and that wasnt even a harsh "tackle"... So WHU were given a penalty and it was Diamanti who took it. And jeng jeng jenggggggg Almunia went to the right was and managed to push the ball out!!! That was really a great save from him... Gosh i take back everything i've ever said about Almunia bout him being a bad keeper.. I'll happily eat a humble pie now :D Later i found out that the reason why he wasnt at his best level earlier in the season was because his mother in law had passed away and he just wasnt himself.... Feel so sad but right now he's at a good form.. Second half came and we tried as much to score but no luck. WHU had a few decent chances despite us being down to 10 men but they also couldnt score. Then about 10 minutes before the game ended, WHU handled the ball in the penalty box and so it was a penalty!! Phewww luckily Cesc managed to score and killed the game :) All in all it was an exciting game and Song really did a good job defending... With Vermaelen maybe out for Birmingham, I dont mind having Song to replace him... Such a versatile player and he was man of the match!! The reason why i said maybe out for Birmingham was because the Gunners have appealed to the FA for the red card and FA will hear the appeal today. I'm so nervous.... I hope FA overturn the suspension because we really need him.. I'm scared to even imagine Silvestre in the next game because truth be told, he's not at his best level now. And Wenger might rest Sol for the Barca game next week so emmmmm.... Aaaahhh i dont wanna think about it!!! Speaking of Barca, Thierry Henry said in an interview that everytime there's a CL draw, he'll be in pain because he doesnt want to face Arsenal. The amount of love he has for this team makes me wanna cry... He is a true Gooner... And he said he will NEVER EVER celebrate if they score against us... Awwww.... then dont score Titi :P

Ok enough of update on my beloved team. Move on to Sunday, we went to Sunway Lagoon and had sooooooooooooo muuucchhhhh fun there.... We tried so many water rides together and some were scary ones but as long as i'm with him, i feel safe <3 Cant believe time passed by sooooo freaking fast and the next thing i know, it's time for me to say goodbye to him :'( It was painful but i had to let him go back home.... I hope we get to do this again... I really love him to death....

CHAMPIONS LEAGUE DRAW!!!!!!!

Okay lets go straight to the point. The Champions League draw which was held about 2 hours ago. Guess who we are ermmm drawn??????? BARCELONA!!!!!!!!!!! Perasoanlly i was hoping for CSKA Moscow and then we can go on to tougher ones and maybe final would either be Barca or ManU but to be drawn so early against them is just so shocking!!! But kinda good in a way because if we were able to beat Barca, then we actually could easily cruise into the final and eventually become champion!!! And if we could beat Barca, that could at least shut all the other teams and people who look down on us and write us off for like 10 million times!!! That got me a lil excited :D SO i dont know whether i could have sound sleep from now till March 31st :P So we will play home first which means Thierry Henry is coming homeeeeee.... I BELIEVE THIS TEAM COULD DO IT. If we could win CL and BPL, oh my freaking god!!!!!! that'll be like the best thing everrrrrr.... We totally deserve it!!! Hope Robin van Persie can make it for the away against Barca. even if he cant make it, i'm sure we have sufficient players to win this... Come one Gunnerssss.... Bring on Barca!!!!!!! Let's beat the world's best and we can overtake to be the world's best. OMG i'm all excited again!!!!! Byeeeeee....

Dramaaa

Sorry for the late post. Been busy. Hahaha...... Anyways, first up, Hull City v Arsenal. It was a game full of drama and it really gave me a heart attack until the final whistle.... Ok Arshavin netted the first goal. It was a good goal as he dribble past 2 defenders and netted the ball. It was one of his best goals. Superb!!!! After that, Hull got a penalty which was not supposed to be given as the player was fucking offside and Sol even got a yellow for bringing him down -_- There was nothing much Almunia could do although he went the right way but the ball went in. I wouldnt blame him though.... The drama came when Boateng seemed to poke Bendtner's eye for god knows what reason. And Bendtner also got a yellow WTF??? Anyways after that Boateng tackled Sagna and it was a career threatening challenge as his boots was at his knee!!! Of course he was given a second yellow and that resulted in red. Reports later came out that there were stud marks on Sagna's knee.... Ugghhh people just dont learn anything from the Ramsey incident!!!! Its really lucky that Sagna was okay... Anyways, Theo came on and he really created many chances but sadly none were finished. But it was clear that Theo was like a breathe of fresh air.. Hull players were clearly too slow for him... Hehehehe... Anyways we tried to score but nothing came out until it was the 90th minute and right then i started to panic. We cant go away with a draw.. We need the 3 full pointssss!!!!!! And then there were like 6 minutes of stoppage time and that i think was the time that the players realised that we NEED another goal.. And at the 4th stoppage minute, Denilson kicked the ball from a long range which looked like a desperate last attempt and it went straight to GK but unfortunately GK just parried it back to the danger zone when he could have saved it and off the ball went towards Bendtner and of course he made damn sure that he net the winner!!! :D :D :D Phewwwww that was a relieffff.... I really appreciated Denilson's shot although i've always thought he was lazy at times and looked like he was jogging all the time... But for this game, he was decent.. He tried to get back his ball whenever he lossed it. So credit to him.. Of course credit to Bendtner and Arshavin. We worked really hard until the last minute and that showed our determination and like Arsene said we have mental strength and desire to win the league... Vermaelen was good as usual :D He was really the signing of the season!! Sol was good for someone his age to play the 2nd game of the week. He provides experience and gave some boost to the young players. Clichy is really becoming my next favourite. He's looking like how he is few years back. Nasri was ok.. Wasnt as good as during the Porto game and Hull players read his game quite well.. But of course you cant expect him to start doing what he did against Porto immediately for every single game. All in all, almost every player were good. Almunia also had a good game trying to punch out ball and catch it every time he has a chance to do so... The penalty was not his fault... Of course this game missed players like Cesc, Rosicky and Song and i heard all of them might be back for this Saturday's game against West Ham... Ohhh i'm so excited we have only 8 games to go..... Not very easy run-in but i think we can do it. Finally....

ManUtd will play against Liverpool and although Liv have not been good lately, i really hope they'll trash ManUtd. They would really do us a favour :D

Tigger's coming this Saturday :D He's gonna spend a night in KL. He said he's gonna bring me to Sunway Lagoon, do some shopping :D and just hang out. I asked him to teman me to watch Ars v WHU at 1am but he said not sure -_-''

Thats all about it. Byeeeee peepssss..... Arsenal For Life!!!

All's good now :D

So a little update about my life. Tigger and me are okay now :D I was glad that he texted me that evening. I missed him so much. So we promised each other some stuff and then life is back to normal. Errrmmm actually not really back to normal. Work sucked big time. The only good thing is ze boss asked me whether i wanna be a director of a big company for a few months while they search for a permanent director. Told her i'd think about it. I'll definitely get some money. On to my fucking apartment. Of course nothing good ever happen in that shithole. Internet has not been working since yesterday, my laptop crashed for no fucking reason and now (Saturday 5.45pm) i'm at my office. Of course not for work. There's aircond here and internet so i thought i could spend a night here cos it's so fucking hot in my apartment. Might try to see whether i could watch Hull v Arsenal tonight through live streaming. Actually i feel kinda pathetic to come to this level. No friends and i dont have anything to do. Can i survive another 9 months here?? I'm not too sure. Can or not, i still have to push myself to go on. Apart from that, nothing interesting is happening in my life.

So as i said earlier, Hull v Arsenal tonight. VERY nervous. No room for errors for us. Tonight we will be without Cesc, Gallas, Song, MAYBE Sagna and MAYBE Sol. But i'm pretty sure we could win this game. Nasri had shown fantastic performance in Cesc's position during the Porto game. Plus we still have Eboue, Bendtner, Andrey, VERMAELEN!! :D And i think Clichy has been improving in an unbelievable manner. So i'm very confident in this team. After this we only have another 8 games to go!!!! OOOOOOOHHHHHH i'm freaking excited!!!!! It's time for us to hold a silverware for BOTH CL and PL!!!!!!!! Anyways, i'm gonna end now. Dont know what am i gonna do now in the office. Maybe watch some videos or WORK!! Hahaha the horror!!!! Byeeeeee....

I'm suffering now without my Tigger. All morning all i thought was him. Not even Arsenal's 5-0 can make me happy. Not even after watching the goals for a millionth time :'( I gotta make my decision fast and right now, all i can think is that i gotta let him go. I dont wanna further torture him with all my ridiculous demands and attitude anymore. I dont want to be the person who is gonna block his future. I know his future is not with me. He belongs with someone who can make him happy all the time. Someone who can care for him and be with him no matter what. Someone who knows what to do when facing fucked up situations like this. And i know that someone is not me. It will never be me. All i think about is myself. Maybe "some" people are right. I dont deserve him. I dont deserve to be with anybody because of my character. He might think that i dont love him anymore but i actually just dont want to make him suffer anymore. I do love him. I love him very much. More than anything in this world. But sometimes we just take for granted many things and this is one of it :'(

Arsenal 5 FC Porto 0 !!!!

I didnt watch the game as it was 3.45 am but there were sooooo many things to talk about in this superb game. First up, we were without Captain Cesc and William Gallas and many thought we would be lost without him. Little did they know that we would be fine without him :D The result provided a lot of firsts. This was Nicklas Bendtner's first hat trick in his career. This was the first time Arsenal has overturned a first leg deficit in 30 freaking years!!! Arsenal are the first team to ever put 5 past Porto in Champions League. First time in this season that Arsenal managed to score in the first 15 minutes. First time Arsenal had a hat trick in this season. Last season was Arshavin v Liverpool.

There were too many Man of the Match for this game. First up, Arshavin didnt look like he was too selfish as he assisted in a couple of goals. I am soooo proud of him. I thought he was being selfish and wasted too many chances in his past previous games. But what a changed player is he now :D Nasri took on 3 defenders before putting in a low attempt on goal. It was really beautiful. Almost Dennis Bergkamp-like :D He is becoming my favourite player next to Rosicky and Vermaelen. Eboue finally scored the 4th goal assisted by Arshavin. Eboue then was taken down in the box during injury time and penalty was given and Bendtner was to take it. That was a great way to end the game. Now we'll be in the quarter finals and i actually think we can win a Double this season.. Woooohooooooooooo that got me all excited!!! :D Bendtner did a GREAT job especially after missing 10 million chances during Burnley. He actually paid his debt together with interest!! Hehehe.. Heard Vermaelen and Campbell did a great job defending. I actually like the pairing and they seem to work well together. In fact Vermaelen works well with anyone i guess :D

So far, no news from Tigger. I miss him. I wanna call him but i guess the pride in me wont let me do it. I wonder how is he now. Is he still sick? Or has he gotten better???

100th post :(

This is my 100th post and so far NOTHING's been great in my life. Decided to take a little break from Tigger and then see how things go. I have not been in contact with him ever since he agreed to give me some space. Truthfully, i dont wanna do this to him but i think i have to in order to evaluate our relationship. Is it worth continuing or should i just completely end it to avoid hurting him even more???? Am i the person he really love?? Will i be able to completely forget about the past if i were to get back with him?? Right now, it's all QUESTIONS QUESTIONS AND MORE QUESTIONS.. I really dont know what to do.. I have no one to talk to, no one to lend their shoulder for me to cry on.. Nothing!! Before we ended things this afternoon, he did say that he was not feeling well.. I hope he's okay now. I really wanna ask how is he doing but i just dont have the courage to text him.. Good god why am i being such a coward bitch?? Just take the bloody phone and text or call!!! Is that soo fucking difficult?? I guess i really am a coward bitch. A bitch who doesnt care about anyone's feelings but her own. A bitch who thinks the world against her. A bitch who just cant be happy with things that she already has :'( :'( :'( The fact is i really do miss him.. I miss him like fucking crazy.. Is this the end of everything? Where do i start from here???

P/S: Arsenal v Porto in the early morning. I hope we win even though we'll be without Cesc. At least give me something to be happy about.

SHIT!!

Shit! I think i made a mistake with a client. Was supposed to ask her to pass back the Annual Return AND the signing pages for financial statement but when she called yesterday, i told her to pass back only the Annual Return!!!! Of course i forgot because normally we dont send the financial statements to client, this is Ling's job!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!

On a different note, Arsenal will be going against Porto in the Champions League last-16 tie and we will be without Cesc this time as he is suffering from a hamstring problem. I think we'll do just fine without him. Guess Wenger thought it will be a huge gamble to play him for today's game as it might aggravate his injury and he would then be out for a longer time. he wont be out for too long so i guess it's quite a relief. Hope Walcott-Bendtner-Diaby trio will give us some strength and REALLY hope Bendtner learn something from the match against Burnley. NO MORE MISSED CHANCES!! William Gallas is out (AGAIN!!) He was supposed to be fit for Porto but then he went "back to square one" when he got injured again during training while jogging!! Hope he'll be ok but not too sure how long he'll be out again. Heard it's ONE MONTH!!!! Good god, whats with Arsenal and all their injuries??????!!!!! ANd please dont say it's cos we're a young team and our players and "soft" cos Gallas is 32 (i think) and van Persie is 26/27. Ooooohhhh speaking of van Persie, there were rumours saying that he'll be back in a matter of weeks!!!!!! Gosh i got sooooooo freaking super excited when i heard this. The down side to it is that he's always slow to get back to his good side after recovering from injuries sooo.... hmmmmm... I just hope he'll be back for at least the last few matches and just really fire us to the top and hopefully champions this season :D :D :D This might just be our season!!!!! Can you sense my excitement??? Hehehehe..... I really hope we are champions this season. We've gone through shit and we deserve to be champions more than any other team. We were written off for god knows how many times and the injuries list seems no end to it.. We really deserve it.. We were the team with NO controversies compared to Chelsea or Liv or ManCity.. It's time for us to lift the precious trophy after a 5-year drought.. WE ARE GONNA BE CHAMPIONS THIS SEASON 2009/2010!!!!!!

On a not so good note, me and Tigger are getting from bad to worst. I really dont know what to say. I really dont know what to do or what to think. I went to sleep at 9.30pm last night for goodness sake!!! Cos i dont wanna think bout it.. It's really pathetic that i dont have a single friend to talk to about this.. I really am clueless and lonely :(

FML

Life is pretty weird for me these days. Went back on Saturday by bus. I really dont know what to do on Saturdays and Sundays in that fucking apartment. Roommate's being a bitch as usual. I'm irritated by the sight of the guy whom i heard is actually really the owner of the unit. Question is if he's really the owner, then why are we paying the rent to that fucking old amn instead of him??? Anyways, back to my story, so i went back on Saturday. Followed mum and dad to a wedding dinner. It was ok. There were performances by some group of girls and they were LOUD!! And they were wearing skimpy clothes. Gosh in the middle of the dinner, i got really confused as to whether it's a wedding function or a freaking concert!! So we got back at around 11pm, just in time for my Arsenal v Burnley game. Man it was entertaining. 3-1!!! Bendtner missed like 10 chances to score. It just wasnt his day. Cesc was good and scored the 1st goal. Then he was substituted as he was having some hamstring problem. Theo scored the 2nd goal. It was really a good shot and i guess it just proved to some people that they were wrong for criticising him during the international friendly few days back when Chris Waddle claims that Theo doesnt have "football brain". Eat your heart out Chris!!! Back to the game, Arshavin scored like almost the last minute of the game. He also had a few chances earlier but all were wasted. I sometimes think he's a bit selfish. But as long as we got the 3 points i dont really care actually :P Of course, Theo was the man of the match :D 1 game down, 9 to go!!! If we could win in all remaining games, i really think we could win the premiership... Oh god, i'm freaking excited. It's close to 5 years since we've won any trophy. This could be our season. Haters can say what they want i dont really care much.

I've started parking outside the apartment as of yesterday. And when i go pay my rent today, old man better cut off my rm50 for parking. I would be bloody pissed if he doesnt wanna do it!!! I just freaking hate my roommate. When i told her yesterday that i'm going to park outside, she looked serious asking me why. I just say, "i just wanna park outside" and then turn the other way not wanting to continue the conversation. To hell with her. To hell with this apartment.

Oh yeah, i've made my decision that i'll go back to melaka at the end of the year, meaning i'll quit my job at the end of this year. I've had enough of work and life in kl. I hate it sooooooo fucking much!!! And the reason why i wanna wait till end of the year is ebcause i wanna save as much as i can and then move back and look for a job in melaka. I'm sure my boss would beg me to stay but i'm just over it. I hate her so much. Not professional at all!! Always with her husband, not caring much about her company. Even though i do my part, i'll still get scolding from client because she's always not in the office. Bottom line is

I HATE THIS LIFE!!!

Not gonna comment about Tigger. I might just give up one of these days.

Arsenal For Life!!!

So last Friday was a public holiday. Decided to go back to Melaka. Took the bus to go home. I dont wanna explain my jourrney from my apartment to the bus stop outside and then to the lrt and straight to Pudu. It was fucking horrible so i'm not gonna explain any further in detail.

So Saturday was the match between Stoke City and Arsenal. But before that i watched the much talk about game which was Chelsea vs ManCity and the reason was John Terry and Wayne Bridge. As everyone know, JT had an affair with WB's ex-gf. Made her pregnant and then paid for the abortion. So the thing that everyone wants to see was whether WB will shake JT's hand before the game starts. And the thing about this handshake thing is that normally it will not be shown but for this game it was extra special and there was live coverage to see the handshake. I thought WB would shake his hand. But NO NO NO..... JT extended his hand to shake WB's hand but WB ignore him and went to shake the other player next to him. I mean WOWOWWWEEEEEE... That was an awesome thing to do on WB's part. But the worst part was the entire game, Chelsea fans were booing WB everytime he touched the ball... You cheer your idiot player and boo the VICTIM??? Very classy people -____- But fret not, ManCity trashed Chelsea 4-2... All i can say is HUAHUAHUAHUAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA!!!! Serves you right Mr. JT..

Anyway moving on to my lovely team.. Well i thought ManCity beating Chelsea was gonna be the highlight for Saturday but my team actually went on to take the spotlight.. All for the right and wrong reasons. As you know, Stoke City is famous for the throws especially from Delap. Their first goal was in fact a throw on the 8th minute. So we were trailing 1-0 until Bendtner, who is slowly becoming my favourite, headed our 1st goal. And it was 1-1 during the 1st half and then at the 66th minute, a nightmare happened in front of my eyes. Ryan Shawcross lunged at Aaron Ramsey, entering into a tackle, and left Ramsey's right leg hanging in a very awkward position. It was so hard to watch and they didnt even show replay cos it was so bad and awful. So for about 10 minutes, the game stopped and you could see the distraught faces on Vermaelen, Cesc, Sol, Clichy and most of our players. In the end, Ramsey was stretched off into an ambulance and the game continued. I was freaking nervous because we were at 1-1 and i wasnt sure whether we could win this game as the players were clearly so distracted by the injury. And then handball occured in the penalty box on the 90th+ minute and we were given penalty. It was a huge burden for Cesc to make sure he net this in to ensure a win and of course he scored!!! I was literally crying at this point. It was a very emotional moment for me and i'm sure for all Arsenal fans. Cesc dedicated that goal for Ramsey. And then just 3 minutes before the game ended, Vermaelen scored the 3rd goal and that was game over for Stoke. I was crying like a baby... You could see that on that night the players were men instead of boys. We knew that this was a great moment for us. At the end of the game, all the Arsenal players gather around in a circle and it just clearly showed that we were determined to win this for Ramsey and to win the league. I can clearly say that in this 6 years of supporting this team, this game was the one that reaffirmed my love for this team and that i was right to support this team. I;ve never cried for a game and i cried like a freaking baby for this game. Anyone who's not a fan or a football fan for that matter will think i'm weird and crazy but who cares. Now we have to make sure we win this league and win this for Ramsey and for those who dont believe in our team. Of course it was hard to celebrate the win because at the same time, we lost a player for the remainder of the season. But i think we are strong and we actually can win the league. After the injury i could see the firing spirit in every player. I am proud of this team. Even until now, whenever i read or hear bout the stoke game, i'll get so emotional that i dont wanna hear or read about it. Cesc showed why he deserved to be the captain, Sol tried to bring the team together which reminds me of the invincibles era, Clichy improved tremendously, Eboue was good, Bendtner is really fast to become my favourite, Vermaelen of course won my heart because of his reaction towards the injury and then went on to score and became the only defender with the highest number of goals in the whole league. Almunia was good too. Made a few good saves and of course the 1st goal cant be avoided so i wont blame him. I'm just so proud of this team. Screw all those who had no confidence in us. We are back and we will be champion this season!!!!!!