new year, new life, new me...

it's only less than 40 hours till the new year. time passes so fast and it's so scary that we're getting older every year :) many things happened in 2008. of course the biggest highlight was me going to another state to start my career. this year, i learnt to be independant and not to let people bully me. i learnt to appreciate my family more. i learnt that if you want something, go for it and dont waste time thinking whether you should do it or not. also, as i dont have many friends i learnt to appreciate the handful that i have.

for 2009, i have a few goals that i have set for me!

i would want to lose weight as i am now putting on a few kgs here and there. some pants and blouses felt tight already :(

i want to be more organised next year.

i want to start saving for my new zealand trip.

i will be more patient with a certain someone who i see everyday.

i will learn to cook something else other than curry.

i will learn to speak better mandarin.

i will eat healthily and drink more water (as i had 2 occurence of very embarassing but painful problems)

i will try to stay as long as i can in my current job as the economy is predicted to be worse next year.

well, thats all i can think of. i will add on once i can think of other resolutions. till then,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009

christmas in melaka

went back to melaka for christmas and again had a blast. was with the parents most of the time. went out with andrea and raymond raman to see the eye of malaysia. it was cool but i think it was a waste of money (i.e. tax payers). was supposed to take the bus back to pj but parents decide that they will send me up instead and on the way, stop at ikea. it was jam packed at the mutiara damansara area. then after that went to see aunty peggy in kayu ara. now i know another new place...

all in all, i had a great time in melaka especially with my parents around. adrian was supposed to come back for christmas but couldn't as he was on stand-by. but no worries, he'll be back for chinese new year...yahoo....

makan-makan and melaka

lately, all i do is work. i dont even have the time to go out to party or dine or drink. well cant go dining cos tak cukup duit la :) i've just been swamped with work and have to do everything by myself as the boss is always not in. she ada-ada saje la her alasans. sick la, repair car la, this la, that la...huh...bosan la with all her alasans. but lately i've been trying to control my temper and try not to be too tension over her. and i guess i managed to control it cos i dont feel as tension or angry as i used to. but still once in a while i'll get irritated la...since the economy is not too good now, guess i wont be switching job anytime soon. i'll just have to take it as it comes la....boo...

guess what?

i'm going back to melaka tomorrow!!! i'll be off from thursday till next monday! this is the longest holiday i've had since i moved to pj.

i'm now sharing the parking spot with my adorable room mate. that spot is actually her brother's housemate's spot but he's back to hometown for a month and will be back end of the month so when he comes back i've to go back to my fucking spot. i told patrick that the fucking-bastard-shit-ccb guard always kacau me and he said he'll try to look for a parking for me but i doubt so la.

oh ya...went to a christmas party at the chapel beside my apartment last saturday. actually doreen from my office invited me. said there will be makan and shows. when i heard the word makan, i told her i'll go la. as usual la. hehe.. the makan was good. i had cha kue teow, mushroom soup, mee jawa and stuffed tauhu. the shows were not so great. there were magic show and ventriloquist and few songs sung by the senior members from other church. i almost fell asleep...especially after having those delicious food...hehe...after that, me and doreen and 2 of her friends went to doreen's place which is in block b. her place was cool and nice. but i felt lost when hanging out with them cos they're all over 40 years old. they were talking about old people stuff la..hehe..so i left early and went to hang out with tigger.

i'm so excited bout tomorrow. cant wait to see my dear mummy and daddy. too bad adrian wont be around, i think.

i hate weak women and gold-digger men!!!

this past few weeks have been hectic and feels like shit for me. mainly because of that fucking bitch. she's so forgetful, blind (literally!) and a weak woman. the reason why i said she's weak is because she lets her husband control her. even when her husband is angry at her for something, she doesn't stand up for herself. she just keeps quiet. i understand if she wants to remain calm but please la dont let people bully you. she's always with her husband 24/7. of course her husband is like a gold-digger. i feel like he's using her for her money. and the one thing i really hate about him is that he thinks he knows everything. everytime i talk to him, he likes to go against what i said and makes me feel like i'm wrong. please la your english also tak betul and you cant even spell simple words and you wanna pretend to be so highly educated. so that's why lately i dont speak to him as often as i used to. he even had the cheek to ask me to go to jonker walk when i go back melaka during the christmas and buy for him a thing to scratch the back thingy, i dunno what is it called la. puuuiiii..i got no time to buy la. even if i want to then give me money first la...expect me to buy with my own money ah..po dah!!! oh ya, sometimes the wife even burps in front of me and i can actually smell what she had for lunch. tolong la cover sikit la your mouth when you burp..irritating la....

as much as i complain about the 2 bitches, i still plan to work there for at least 1 year or so for the experience. however, my priority for the moment is to look for a plave at the pelangi apartment cos i absolutely HATE staying at my current apartment. mainly because of the fucking security guard. always calls me and say hi or whistle at me. the most frightening was when he stood behind my car when i was parking. bastard, you're not even handsome so please dont act like a mat romeo trying to pikat girls. i've seen some stupid gatal girls have fallen for ur "charm" but i'm not one of them ok. if i know of any samseng or gangster, i would have ask them to come whack you but sadly (and lucky for you) i do not know any. i hope one day, you'll get your balasan. i hope one day, your penis would drop off and someone would come pull your balls till their dangling to the floor. i hope one day your face will be full of jerawat batu. i hope you go to hell. you think just because i'm small in size, i cant do anything is it...dont underestimate me ok. i have something planned to do to you if i ever found a place elsewhere. on the last day of me staying there, i would take my car and go to the guard house and scream at you and curse at you and ask you to go fuck off. then i'll speed up and cabuts.

ok, enough of irritating stories. mum came up last week cos she wants to teman me go back melaka as i told her i wanted to drive. and i was in melaka for 3 days. but i'll have a longer holiday during christmas as i have 5 days leave. yahoo....

went to ichiban ramen last week with tigger before watching madagascar 2. the movie was off the hook (as prem of fly would say it). it was hilarious.

my brother is giving me his laptop soon as he just bought a new apple macbook. i feel so happy. at last i would have something to do when i'm bored. planning to subscribe to broadband once it get the laptop.

yesterday, me and tigger had our dinner at little penang cafe in the curve. i had asam laksa while tigger had penang nasi lemak. my asam laksa was ok. i still prefer their laksa though. after that we went to watch igor. this is the second animated movie we watch in 2 weeks. it was ok. there are a few very funny parts. i'm going back to melaka next week. cant wait. might drive home. my cfm exam is next tuesday. i'm not nervous. i do study but if this time i cant get through then its the end of icsa for me. i cant afford to sit for the same paper over and over again. and its not even my fault that i fail. the examiners set sucky questions and expect the students to be a super-genius to answer.

my "wonderful" boss is on leave again. this time to port dickson for some church camp thingy for 3 days. they just went to langkawi a couple of weeks back and now outstation again. nowadays i just do my work. i dont bother bout her anymore. since she doesn't care about her company, then please dont expect me to care. this time i'm determined to go after august. thats my target.

boo to all lazy and inconsiderate bosses!!!

of pasar malaming and disgusting "prince charming"

i wonder what has happen to my brother. his fb and friendster accounts are all gone. seems very very weird. i hope he's ok. i'm just a worried sister.



went to the ss2 pasar malam yesterday and again had a great time as always despite having a difficulty in finding a parking. the fruits they sell over there are so fresh. they even give u test the fruits eventhough u go there every week to buy. the apples are crunchy...unlike the ones they sell at the section 17 pasar malam which tasted like cotton. i hate cotton-y apples. anyway, besides the fruits, the food there is great too. i've tried the popiahs at both the stalls and i prefer the crunchy one which i had yesterday. the chai-tau-keuy was good too although a little different compared to the melaka ones. here they put tau-geh which taste ok but i prefer the melaka ones as they're darker and spicier. the keropok lekor there is also good although i despise the guy selling it cos he always give preference to other customers eventhough i was there first. sheeshh.. but the one thing i hate about the ss2 pasar malam is the frog seller. he sells frog and it looks so disgusting. the first time i saw it, i was wondering what is the greenish-reddish-golden-ish wet-slimy thing this man was selling. and then, i saw the head of the frog and all my bulu stood up! so disgusting! and there were so amny people buying it. i can't imagine people cooking it and eating it. well, i once had frog meat when i was way way younger. me and my family were at a restaurant for a function but i forgot what function and my dad asked me to try this particular fried meat. he told me it was chicken meat so i innocently hantam it. after that, he asked me "nice or not?" and i said it tasted ok la. and then he revealed to me that it was frog meat. after that, i dare not try it anymore. i just have a fear towards frogs and snakes and lizards and all things amphibian. my house has a pond and everytime it rains the frogs will all berkumpul at the pond making this disgusting ong-ong sound and my mum will be the only who catches the frogs and throw them out. of course she uses a net la, not bare-handed. she always asks me to go catch it but i dare not. i hate the sight of them and to even look at them makes me puke. and i don't get the story of the frog and the princess. i mean how can the princess even have the guts to kiss the damn frog... i don't believe that she does not feel disgusted or geli. can be so brave some more..bohong punya princess la...and the frog can turn into a prince charming after being kissed by the princess? yikes!



anyway, enough coverage for something i don't like... i'm going out with tigger today and tomorrow. speaking of him, he says that in the whole malaysia's sakae sushi, he's the only indian staff. i think he should be given more pay la because of that and also because of how hard he works. he takes full shift and never takes leave. he's a harder worker than i am. he deserves more pay la.



i'm still thinking of my plans for next year. it's already mid-november now and almost year-end and i need to start planning for 2009. i need something that will inspire me. '



p/s: looks like my "dear" housemates are not moving out after all :( damn, i was hoping they would berambus. always mengotorkan the house. oh well, i'm planning to bring my small tv back the next time i go back melaka and probably buy a dvd player to kill my boredom staying there, especially after my exam on the 2nd of dec. wish me luck! :D

fly-nniversary

the weekend came and went by like wind...was studying on saturday while listening to fly fm and the fly-nniversary was at 1u. i was so so tempted to go as there will be performances and stuff. even asked tigger to scold me for wanting to go but instead he asked me to go. so i did. i saw the oh-so-cute hafiz, jules and steve. even saw mooky of one buck short while i was walking around before the party starts. it started at 8pm. it was supposed to start at 7 but i guess there were some problems with the sound system. the opening was the fly peeps in masks doing the stomp. it was so cool. i saw performances by faizal tahir, jacqueline victor, one buck short and estranged. after that, decided to go back as my legs were killing me. it was a great party but i wouldn't say the same for the crowd. it was jam-packed with teenagers. and they were shuffling and pushing around and even threw stuff out. my nose was hit by a stone. poor nose...all in all, i was happy to be able to see hafiz but sadly i went there alone so was not able to take any pics with him :( oh well, better luck next time.

sakae sushi

had a great time last night (even though it was full of shit during the day). it was tigger's off day yesterday so after my sucky work, we went to sunway pyramid to have dinner at sakae sushi. it was my first dining in a japanese restaurant. now one might wonder why we were there when tigger himself works in sakae sushi in 1u. actually i also dunno la. tigger said he wants to go there so we went la. and he collected the receipts so we wanted to redeem it to a vip card. we had rice with japanese curry, some tauhu thing, some maki, egg custard and some chicken cheese thing, the japanese curry was good. so was the tauhu and maki and egg custard. but the biggest disappointment was the chicken cheese thing. it looked good but it doesn't taste as good as it looks. the chicken was not tender and it tasted like it was not fresh chicken meat. but all in all, we had a great time there. we went back after lepaking for a while as the both of us have work today. now i'm back in this shit-hole.

i'm planning to drive back to melaka in december after my exam to repair the car window and possibly some servicing. then i'm planning to bring back the small tv i have at home so that i wont be bored to death in the apartment. planning to buy a dvd player also. after the exam, i will only have work. after that i'll have no studies to do and can't go out lepak everyday as tigger is working and can't spend a lot of money la. berjimat cermat i must :)

fucking week, fucking days, fucking hours, fucking minutes, fucking moments...

how many fucking times must i suffer la? i'm like a fucking girl waiting for you everyday so that work can get done but you're either busy going out with your fucking husband or busy uploading fucking pics from langkawi to your fucking blog. and your fucking former staff/bitch-in-heat never ever does her work properly and you still can fucking layan her whenever she calls. some more, all the fucking pending stuff from few years back are all stashed under the fucking table which looked like a fucking pig sty before i started clearing it. did you know that she talked smack about you before she left? fucking not faithful la. i hate to hear her fucking voice whenever she calls the office. she even talked smack about you in her blog but i guess you were too blind to notice it and you have her link in your blog. what the fuck la wey... i deserve more pay for doing her shit ok. i guess i was a bit excited when i heard that she fell off the fucking sink while trying to fix the lights. who ask her to be a stupid fucking shit who stands on a sink. bodoh gila babi. i guess it's a punishment for her la for not doing her job when she was here. some more can go church la and get certificate and all that la.. all bullshit la wey...when people are sincere to God and pray truthfully to them, they don't show off by posting the damn certificate in their blog ok. they don't keep asking God for help for even the smallest fucking thing ok. solve the damn problem yourself la. people who are sincere to God also won't whore themselves out to guys ok. i know you're single but don't go acting like a bitch in heat la. anyway, i'm not here to judge you personal life (eventhough i just did!). i fucking hate you and your fucking former boss. she's not my boss because she doesn't act like one. you and your boss' fucking mess is also affecting my personal life ok. because of the both of you, i have tension which also leads to tension with my fucking lonely life, my eating habits and my relationship. now i know what people from brickfields and sabah act like. i have another 9 more months to go la. i can't fucking wait. these 9 months people can beranak a baby or lead a good life or migrate to somewhere better where their boss treat them with respect and professional ok. but these 9 months, i'm stuck in this shit-hole. but don't worry, i'll dig myself out of this shit-hole and come out a better person. i'm not negative like the both of you ok. fucking shit!

the story of my love life (nothing geli or mushy la)

since there is no update in my boring life right now, let me tell the story of how tigger and i met. it was in 2003 when we first met. i remember we became friends during the time when we were rehearsing for the marching for merdeka day. i had so much fun talking and joking with him. then he told FV that things will not be "happening" if i'm not around. i got a little excited la. but were still friends that time la. then on the 1st of january 2004, we met up and he said that he doesn't want to be close to me anymore cos he said he he's not a good person and that hanging out with him would ruin my reputation (haha... i didn't even know i had a reputation in that college!). he said that from that time onwards we would just limit ourselves to hi and bye. so i accepted that "request" and went back home and bawled like a baby. i even discussed this with my bro and he said that if a guy does this sort of thing, it means he likes the girl. so, the next few days, whenever he's around i would hide myself either in the class or more often, in the toilet. i was so shy to even look at him in the eye. then i realised that if i really want to be his friend again, i should work towards it and fight for it. so i did. i request to meet up with him and told him that he's not the only one who had done a lot of bad things and i'm not as innocent as i look. it was the most horrifying moment at that time for me. in the end, he said ok and we became friends again. i realised after that that he was much nicer and closer to me after that. then in february, on his birthday, i treated him to rennaisance hotel's buffet lunch and gave him a pair of parker pen as his present. the next day, while we were outside the college talking to a friend, he held my hand for the first time. at that point, i froze. of course la, first time a guy hold my hand ok. and i was so shy i didn't even look at him. we just continued holding hands and talk to that friend. that was the beginning of us. after that, we were always together everywhere. people in the college knew about us but i know some of them dengki and don't like seeing us together.

we had our ups and downs also la. the ones i can remember is the 2 idiots. no point mentioning their name cos they are not worth mentioning. i will feel like as though i'm giving them credit. anyway, those 2 idiots were mentioned earlier in this blog when i wanted to release my anger. besides that we had a lot of small small problems la. then when he went to genting to work, i cried like a baby again la. it was hard not having him around. i remembered a time when he came to melaka to see me then when it was time for him to go back to genting, i cried at the bus station. even the bus driver asked me to follow into the bus. it was really funny la now come to think about it.

the biggest obstacle for us came last year. i can't really mention it here to protect tigger's rep but it was a really bad time for us in august 2007. that was the time i almost tried to commit suiside (which is really stupid, i know) but luckily i didn't. it was a stupid decision on tigger's part to be involved in such a dangerous and serious matter but it all turned out well. he repented and after that, he never really trust people easily. i was also involved with a problem of my own. i call it my rebellious period cos i was hanging out with this bunch of losers who likes to tani all the time. i guess i needed attention. one of them liked me but i came to senses and said i have to stop hanging out with them. so i did and things became much better for the both of us after that. both of us made a bad decision but we came out of it with lessons learned.

i guess we are like husband and wife now. except we don't stay together. we've gone thorugh a lot and i guess nothing can break us up as we've gone through the worst of times and we're still together. our relationship is defined by who we really are. not like the couples we see nowadays. we're comfortable with ourselves and we don't pretend to be someone we're not. i can burp and belch in front of him without feeling shy or embarassed. that's what made us stay together for almost 5 years now. i hope we can be together till the end of time as i can't find anyone else who understands me as much as he does.

there goes the story of my love. thank yous.

a special dedication to my boss

how many times must i wait patiently for you to come back to the office so that actual work can be done on time? i guess this is the main reason why we always get penalties from ROC and scoldings from clients la. can't you be a bit more professional and start to buck up? why do you have to treat me like this? these are the reasons that made me confirm that i'll quit in august 2009. the reason why it's august is because i wanna help you with the submission of annual return and accounts. see how kind and thoughful i am. but yet, you can't do the same for me. i know you've treated me for lunch many many times, given me food and stuff and even bought for me that "thin", over-sized t-shirt and chocolate from langkawi but i did not request all that from you ok. you wanna belanja me it's your pasal la... it has got nothing to do with why i should be grateful to you ok so please don't give me those excuses when i hand in my resignation letter next year ok. in fact, you should be the one to be grateful to me ok.. cos i've done everything on my part but it was you who are just not bothered about your own company. i know you just got married last year and are probably still in your honeymoon shit but you should place more importance towards your company ok. and about your stalker (or rather your husband's stalker), please la try to handle it with better emotion la. you're already 40-plus but still sometimes act like a child. just tell the stalker off la. why wanna let her ruin your holiday? i know it's none of my business but it's starting to affect me ok cos sometimes stalker will call the office and i have to handle her ok. i got other better things to do than entertain your stalker ok. sheeshhh...

heaven & hell

had a great time last week despite the fact that it was a full-of-shit week. last friday, tigger was free from afternoon onwards so we planned to meet up after my work. so we went to makan at tgi fridays and the food was good. and then we went back to his place in sg buloh as he wanted to pass some money to his mum. then after that we went to ice bar at the curve. it was freezing cold that we had to wear the jackets which were provided there. the drinks were in a tabung uji instead of a glass. i had bailey's (which to me is a sissy drink, but had to drink it cos tigger ordered that for me..) i guess he didn't want me to get too tipsy as i had to drive back home alone..he had some smirnoff stuff. i'm not pakar in drinks so i'm not sure exactly the name of the drink that he had. anyway, it was a good experience. wouldn't go there again though cos it was damn expensive for such a small tabung uji.

work is starting to piss me off. ms boss is a very (emphasise on the VERY) forgetful person. she sometimes forget to write the date or sign on the cheque that she's issuing. i mean, how can you be so silly as to forget such a simple thing. she always kena marah from her client cos of her forgetfull-ness. sometimes, i also kena marah from the client cos of her. besides that, she always come in late for work. sometimes, at 11 something or worst, 2pm. if she comes in late, i cant get a lot of things done as i need her signature or her advice. i know i can call her but i prefer to speak to her face-to-face so that i can get clear message and instructions from her. oh ya, one more thing, marital problems are displayed in front of me. hello, boss & husband, you all not shy ah fight and argue in front of me? you not shy but i shy leh... everytime they argue, i have to pretend to do my work and ignore them. that time more work will be delayed and in the end it'll be my fault for not doing the work on time. isshhh...damn geram la... be professional a bit la. leave your marital problems at home and just concentrate on your work (and memory!) in the office la..

i've already set my mind that i'll work till august next year. the reason is to get that 1 year experience and then i'll chow...since in most job vacancies need at least 1 year experience. i can't stay in this job for too long. it'l eventually de-motivate me and i'll go crazy...

went to watch "the coffin" yesterday with tigger at cineleisure last night. it was an ok horror movie. it was scary in the beginning but after that it was not scary at all. in fact it was more of a love story and the message of not to interrupt the cycle of life. the story is about these 2 person who went through a ritual in thailand of lying in a coffin and go through the funeral ceremony in order to get ride of bad karma. they got ride of it but some paranormal shit started to happen after the ritual. it was an ok movie la. the main actors are ananda everingham from "the shutter" and karen mok. "the shutter" was much scarier and better than this movie. but i had a great time watching any movie no matter how sucky they are as long as tigger's with me :)

my wish to my beloved brother:
-i wish you wont feel lonely or sad
-i wish you will feel happy and be safe all the time
-i wish you have a problem-free life
-i wish you are always happy with whoever you're with
-i wish you would quit smoking completely because i want you to live longer than me
-i wish everything good would happen to you
-i wish you would be closer to me and mummy and daddy and tell us everything you're going through so that we can understand you better and share whatever you're going through
-last but not least, i wish you always have a smile wherever you go and whatever you do...

deepavali, family, AGM and future.

had a blast last week...went back home to my good ol' melaka for deepavali. adrian came back too so it was great. we hardly spend time together as he is always busy with work so it was good to have everyone back home. went to grandpa's shop on sunday to makan laksa and then went to patti's house to help her with the mutton and vege and everything..uncle danny's son, cayden, is just so adorable..he's already 13 months old..how time flies...then on deepavali, aunty pat and her family came..so did ku-ku and uncle gary..and also uncle danny's in-laws..i was supposed to go back on tuesday with sara but adrian said he has to go back on deepavali day itself so i decided to follow him. i was so sad leaving mummy and daddy. almost want to cry but i tried my best to control..i know mummy is having stress with her work and all..i feel so sad..i promise i'll work hard and get enough money so that both of them no need to work anymore. i know it'll take quite some time but i'll try my best.

i went to my first AGM last friday with ms boss at the royal lake club at taman tasik perdana. i'll make it short. it's boring.

yesterday was tigger's sister's 21st birthday and they had a small party for her in their house. some of the relatives came. i had a lot of fun even though 90% of the time i dont know what they're talking. i hope tigger knows that he has a very nice family.

was talking to tigger the other day bout our future and then came the idea that it's better for me to work in this company till august 2009 and then go look for a better job with higher salary. i know it's like kacang lupakan kulit if i just leave after 1 year but i have no choice. i dont feel like i'm progressing here and i want something challenging with more money :D

surprise!!!

anjali

kareena

jacob

from left: sarah, kareena, jacob(front), anjali(back) and ah hui

the cuties...

the surprise party went well. well, not at first though. on friday, i reached puduraya at about 7pm and found out at the counter that my bus venue was changed to bukit jalil. and when i told the guy that the lady who sold me the ticket said to wait in puduraya, he said "kalau u nak complain, pergi le complain". i didn't want to make a big scene so i left and took the shuttle bus to bukit jalil. reached there at about 7.45pm and waited there till about 8.30pm. and the bus driver said whether its 6.30 or 7.30 or 8.30 bus, all would have to go up that particular bus. so i quickly went up just to make sure i get a seat. while all the tension mounts up on me, a malay guy was even flirting with me. i didn't have the mood to scold him so i just ignored him. reached melaka about 10.45pm. the place was packed with cars near sentral. put up at andrea's place. the next morning, andrea brought me to eat roti canai for breakfast. then we went italy bakery in melaka raya to order the cake. andrea gave me the idea that i buy 2 cakes, one for mum and one for dad. so we ordered 2 cakes. told them that we'll come take it at 5pm. then we went to carrefour at dataran to buy drinks, serviets, forks and spoons. then we went to eat my favourite wan tan mee near the place where i used to work. it was lovely. even the wan tan mee aunty still remembers me. then met up with andrea's juniors and raymond. hung out till 6pm then me, raymond and andrea went back to her house. upon reaching there, we remembered that we have not taken the cakes! yikes! so raymond being the kind soul went to take them. about 7pm, aunty pat told me that they have already brought my parents to their house. so we quickly went to my house and prepared. and then at about 7.30pm, aunty pat asked me whether are we ready cos my parents were getting a little restless and they are out of idea in stalling them. so i told her we need just a little more time and asked her to fake having a stomach ache and wants to use the toilet for a while. luckily raymond came just on time. so i told aunty pat to come now. i was so nervous i was sweating like mad. when they arrived, they were really surprised. my mum thought something happened to our house as it was all open and with so many people. the look on their face was priceless. they were so happy and smiling all the way. i was happy to see them so happy. we had a great time. funny thing was aunty pat didn't tell them what was the occassion so they thought she was bringing them out for her anniversarry or birthday. they even bought a cake for aunty pat! almost everyone i invited from aikido came and also aunty melissa and aunty lynn. all of us had a great time. thanks so much to raymond, andrea and everyone who attended but most of all, big big thanks to aunty pat, uncle mike and june for their A-plus effort.

i tumpang sara to come back to damansara yesterday. felt so sad to leave my parents again. gonna miss them so much. but i'll be back for deepavali on the last week of october so am looking forward to going back to be with them again.

all in all, great weekend. the only one missing is adrian as he's very busy with work.. hope the four of us can get together again.

yay...yay...yay...

i'll be going back to good ol' melaka today. am soooo excited and can't really sleep last night. yesterday after work, sent tigger to his aunt's place as he'll be staying there. the curve is just so very near to his aunt's place so thats why he'll be staying there. today will be his first day at work so fingers crossed and good luck.

yesterday, i called kim of aikido to comfirm with her the food and persons coming. and she told me that richard of aikido told joseph about the party and joseph called chua and asked why he wasn't invited. so chua just ask him to come. eeyer...tak tau malu people..go and invite himself. this is my party so i can invite whoever the hell i want. so i told kim it's ok he can come. and since joseph is coming, i terpaksa invite gopal, his bestie la. but i strictly told gopal that i did not invite iqbal so don't go telling him that there is a party at my house. so he said ok. and i terpaksa tell him that i couldn't inform him earlier as i don't have his number and it sounded like he smirked at me on the phone. dunno la whether really or its just my imagination. hehe..anyway, wth...

i hope tomorrow will be a good and fun day. can't believe it's really happening...tata...

yay...will be in melaka tomorrow..

will be going back to melaka tomorrow. am so very overly excited. andrea called last night to confirm that i'll be putting up at her place. heard that sara might come for the party too...double yay... tried calling rileen's mum but no one answered so i gave up.

these few days have been hectic. turned out that the former employee didn't do her work properly. so many queries from roc for the past few years have not been answered. bitch left the whole bunch stacked under the table. now i have to do all the things that she didn't do. and ms boss didn't even blame her. still can talk to her nicely on the phone whenever she calls and care about her. and here i am, cleaning up her damn ass!!! before she left, she told me so many bad stuff about boss and her husband and said she's fed up with them and that's why she left. but after she left, she still calls the office to chat with boss. i mean, wtf...stupid bitch...

good news is tigger got a job in sakae sushi restaurant in the curve. so he'll be staying in his aunt's place in kota damansara. so more reasons for me to go there during the weekends. hehehe...he'll be starting tomorrow.

random pics

when i first moved to pj, tigger, his mum and sis brought me out. so nice of them.

mummy doing her line dance. this shot was taken when i came back for the first time to melaka during merdeka.




me in office.

me with siew chin when i came back. we went satay celup-ing.

me and andrea.

ah hui in aikido. something very disturbing behind her.

spaghetti which i made last night. actually the sauce was made by mummy. i made the spaghetti.

my leftover vege chicken curry and fried egg.

now you see it...

now you dont...hehe..


another 3 days till my going back to melaka. cant wait. just too excited. kim of aikido called me yesterday and said that they've planned what food each of them will bring. wong sms-ed me the other day saying that he'll come. my aikido people are the best. they're a very supportive bunch of people and they like to have fun and not gossip unlike "some" groups. anyway hope everything goes on well.

4 days and 5 days...(today is daddy's birthday)

it had been a great weekend. went to tigger's place on saturday to bring his sister to cheras as she wanted to bring back some books from her hostel. after that, we went to the curve and ikea. had our lunch in little penang cafe and i ordered laksa while tigger and shangkari ordered nasi lemak. my laksa was fantastic...although not as fantastic as my dad's but it was worth it. the pulut hitam was good too. the total bill was less than rm50 for 3 person... compared to chilli's which was rm70+ for 2 person. i then bought some books from borders...to expand my agatha christie collection...overall, we had fun on that day...then later that night, tigger's mum cooked prawn curry which were so good...

another 4 more days till i go back to melaka and 5 days before the party. time passes so fast and i just can't wait for this week. don't really know what's gonna happen on that day...fingers crossed that everything will go on well...

missing mummy, daddy and adrian...

mrs bean will be going back to her hometown today...which means she wont be back at all after this...except to take back her other stuff like her table, "cupboard"...which means i'm free at last!...i'm not sure whether the new girl wants to move into my room or not...i dont mind actually cos she's ok...

been doing some research on migrating to australia. found out that i actually have the required points to go there! so my next step is to get in contact with either my uncle who lives there or probably find an agent.

another 1 more week to go before i step foot on my beloved melaka and 8 days before the party. can't wait. this weekend, might cook some food and also co-ordinate my room since mrs bean is no longer here. then might go to tesco to buy some stuff and just relax...see first la...

8 days to go bebeh...

i just can't wait for the day to come...in exactly 8 days, i'll be going to melaka...my parents not knowing that i'm coming back...and the surprise partyy...oh..all of these just makes me sooo excited...will be calling rileen's mum next week...and will be staying over at andrea's place next friday...

on a lighter note...mrs bean will be going back to her hometown tomorrow..yipeee...although i've said that i was beginning to like her, but after that day she went back to her normal self...singing out loud and being quiet like a freak...so yipee that she's not going to be here anymore...

work has been a bit boring...but miss boss is nice...i know she yearns for a baby but i've heard that it's not easy for her to get one as she had some health problem...pity her...i hope she'll get what she wish for...soon...

my first real cooking...

presenting...my first ever vegetarian chicken curry...

it was my first ever attempt at cooking the vegetarian chicken curry and i must say it tasted quite nice..at least eat-able (i.e. edible) la...was so happy about it...

mrs bean and me chatted on saturday and this time she spoke a lot to me...she said she'll be moving out next month as she is going to taiwan to further her studies. which means i get to continue staying at the balcony room...yay...she talked about her family and her studies and her dreams and her daily life as a student...and she even asked about me...just when i'm beginning to like her, she decides to move out....haiii...we chatted from 2.30 to about 6pm...quite a long chat...and i realised after chatting with me, she had become a bit more considerate and thoughtful...at least i think la...she blow dry her hair outside when i'm sleeping..not like previously where she does everything when i'm asleep...can't belive i'm saying this...sad to see her leaving...

i called aunty pat on saturday and she said that mummy had confirmed that she and daddy will be "going out" with aunty pat. she said the plan is to bring them to her house and then when we're all ready, i'll give her a call and she'll pretend that they'll have to pick "someone" up at ozana and then voila...aunty pat is just so amazing..can think of this idea for me...

also called aunty lynn and she said she'll be able to make it...so now everything's settled on the part of the guests...the only thing left now is the cake and drinks. i've bought the bus tickets and luckily it was not sold out...so yay to everything being according to plan...

this wednesday is a public holiday for selangor so yay again..he he...

yay...

i cooked noodle soup last night. my mummy's version. and it tasted almost like hers but i'm excited cos I cooked my dinner by MYSELF, instead of just heating food that mummy gave me...i'm so proud of myself...he he he...

on a very happy note, aunty pat called me last night and told me that she had already ask my mummy out on her birthday. but mummy said she'll confirm with her today. i wonder, why does she need to think about it? is it because she might have other plans? i just hope she'll say yes. *fingers crossed* anyway, aunty pat has been very supportive and VERY helpful regarding this surprise party. i will buy her a baskin robbins ice cream since she once said that she wants me to buy her one...she truly is my mum's best friend. she's been my mum's friend for over 30 years and that kind of friendship is very difficult to find these days. after speaking to her on the phone, i was so excited i couldn't sleep. but it was made even worst when mrs bean still hasn't close the balcony door at 11 something and i had mosquito bits all over my body *sial* nowadays, i don't even bother whether she's in the room or not. i just do my own stuff and pretend that she's not there.

eh, lari topic pula...my next target is to call aunty lynn and aunty melissa. hope they can make it...

because of my obsession with the notebook *the book and the movie*, i've grown to love the soundtrack of the movie. i need to get hold of the dvd as i've only seen snipets of the movie on youtube. when i hear the soundtrack, it reminds me of tigger and my family. i miss all of them so much. i've been alone for 2 months now (except for the few times where i meet tigger) and i just miss melaka so much. right now, i feel like i'm still not achieving anything to make me happy. i know this job is only temporary. i've decided that i'll work here for a year and then try again to see whether this time i can go to australia. i want to have something to do with books. i know my destiny is with books, not chartered secretary or law although studying those 2 courses did help me to re-discover my love for books. i've love reading ever since i was a child and i couldn't stop even when i'm grown up. so i know thats my destiny. the only thing is i don't know how to get into this industry...

helppp...

i'm obsessed with the notebook! i can't believe that after i've finished reading it few days ago, i'm still thinking and obsessing about it. help me...

aarghhh...my landlord ffk-ed us...again! told me and sin ying that he'll come fix the lights but didn't come. mrs bean said that he's always like this. always promising to fix something but either few months late or totally ignore everything. i guess people nowadays are like that. tell us nice things before we move in and after that...gone...

newbie talked to me a bit last night. said she start work at 7.30am and finish at about 8pm!!!she's just amazing. i couldn't do that if i were in her position. and she said she always have biscuits for dinner. i pity her. furthermore, her room mate, sin ying, sometimes sleeps at about 1-2am. even worse than mrs bean. but at least sin ying studies in her room and doesn't make any noise. unlike mrs bean.

can't wait for 26th to come when i go back to melaka. 16 days to go... will be buying bus ticket this saturday. tigger's in jb with his mum and bro so i don't have any plans with him :( i've to call aunty pat soon to ask her about the surprise plans. hope she remembers. i hope the aikido members will come.

speaking of aikido, i might go to the aikido centre near my place this friday to check them out. it's stated that the classes are on monday, wednesday and friday.

chilli's!!!

miss my home... (thats monk on the telly)

dear tigger in chilli's

me in chilli's

had a great weekend last week. went over to tigger's place and on saturday we went to chilli's in klcc. i ordered tequila-lime fish and tigger had chicken taco with rice and beans. the food was great but sadly can't say the same for the drinks. i ordered hot tea as i had cold and flu and guess what...it wasn't hot at all. not even warm...anyways, the food was worth it and MIGHT go there again. the reason why i said might was because when we arrived there, the waiter asked me whether i'm a muslim because i look like a malay. it seems they're not allowed to serve food to the muslims as it is the fasting month. i didn't want to argue much so i just said a simple no...just because i don't look like a typical chinese doesn't mean i'm automatically a malay...i just hate it when people instantly assume i'm a malay. especially during the puasa month...

i still can't move in to the other room..the landlord still hasn't come to fix the damn light. he said he would come yesterday but he didn't. i can't stand staying with mrs bean no more...she turn on the music loud even when she's studying. she taps her feet on the floor loudly. she sings out loud when i'm trying to sleep. sometimes i don't know whether she does it on purpose to irritate me. it's just so annoying. i don't know why she does what she does.

read the notebook over the weekend and i just love the storyline...it's so heart-wrenching and i cried several times while reading the book. before this, i've heard that this is a sad love story but i didn't know it would be this sad and touching...i'll definitely read it again and again...

i've been thinking, since i love reading so much, my next target is to open my own book store. no selling stationeries and stuff. just strictly books. either selling or renting. that would be nice...would do some research on it soon.

my anger...you bloody f*cker..

had this idiot-bastard-shitfaced client who called up and scolded me on the phone. screamed at me and didn't give me a chance to defend myself. and the worst thing was he slammed the phone while i was talking...that was the worst! no, worst still, it was not our fault. it was his own bloody fault but blamed it on us. ccbknnlc!!! curse u and ur stupid company JNIMC... even ur bloody ASS-istant is no bloody good. he's able to follow u around like a dog but the both of u can rot in hell.

dei parameswaran nachiappan! just because your name means lord shiva in tamil, but u're the exact opposite of a god...in fact u're not human at all...not even an animal..u're a devil aka setan!!! u don't deserve to live in this world.. u're better off living in a cage instead of those poor animals. pour hot water on u and see how it feels. thats exactly how i felt when u spoke rudely to me. on fine day, u'll get the appropriate balasan. u think u've ruined my day but u're wrong. i'm stronger now and know how to handle people like u. if u're in front of me now, i'll use my fist to do the talking...just because u're a man doesn't mean u can bully me...i'm much more stronger than u bloody old man... i have all ur personal details ok..so don't mess with me...

there...i'm done!

"err...i...have...to...ask...uncle...to...come...fix...the...light...first...

mrs bean came back yesterday and i asked her is it ok if we switch rooms. she said ok and in her mind it's already set that she wants the balcony room. so me being kind and generous just agreed la. can't really argue with this spoiled kid. anyway, i heard her pc got jammed cos of too much downloading...(he he he *laughing in silent*) personally i think i cursed the pc...he he.. anyway when i went to pay the rent to my landlord, he said that the single room is very very small. so there goes my dream of living alone. he will fix the lights in my room today and we will switch rooms this sunday cos apparently sin ying can't study in a dim-litted room. anyway, i'm just gonna let it be and not hold any grudge. i'm old enough to not start any arguments or fights with anyone.

i had mummy's asam fish last night for dinner...it was good...yum yum...will be staying over at tigger's place today and the weekends. another 3 weeks till my parents' surprise party...can't wait...

i cooked...for the first time here..

had a GREAT dinner last night. well, actually cos i cooked!!! i cooked rice and steamed the can tuna curry in the steamer. although it was simple but for me it was worth it. i feel happy after eating and was very joyful. tonight i'm eating rice with mummy's asam fish...yay!!! even more happiness and joy for me...

on a lousy note, i just knew it that mrs bean would want to remain in the balcony room if she were to move in with sin ying. this morning sin ying told me that she called mrs bean and she said she's ok with the moving in thingy but wants to remain in the balcony room. so i said ok, sadly. come to think of it, i think i don't mind la moving in with newbie. suffer now, comfort later. maybe she might be way better than mrs bean. fingers crossed...

boring post..

yesterday was not good. had flu and a little sore throat. didn't have much work yesterday. in short, everything was boring. this weekend, will bring tigger to klcc makan at chilli's and movie and also to buy my ipanema sandal by the supermodel gissele bundchen. then might go find out more on the aikido thing near my place. then might go buy some groceries. can't wait for the weekends to come. i need my peoples...

i'm back in hell...

had a wonderful weekend...truly wonderful...
fri, 29th aug- reached melaka at about 9pm. found out that my dad traded in his wira and bought a new savvy. then met up with aikido members in newton.

sat, 30th aug- met up with some friends. had satay celup and bought some stuff in tan kim hock for tigger and ms boss.

sun, 31st aug- was at my grandpa's shop but was not able to eat the laksa as i had sore throat. went to tesco with mum, patti and geetha. mum bought so much of things for me. i just feel so lucky to have her in my life. then went for aikido in the evening. managed to give the surprise party invitation card to some of them. mum cooked an amazing dinner. she even cooked some of her signature dishes and freez it so i can bring up to pj and can heat it and makan anytime i want. thank u mummy... watched made of honour with mum and dad till i fell asleep.

mon, 1st sept- followed mum to bkt serindit for jogging. met aunty pat there and told her of the party. she said she's able to help me. then at about 1.20pm, left melaka for cyberjaya to see adrian. his condo is so nice and luxurious. he gave me a bottle of green tea perfume from l'occitane. then he brought us to restaurant uno for dinner. me and dad had spaghetti, he and mum had pizza. had a wonderful time with them the whole day. then it was time for me to go back to hell. i cried after they left. i just miss them so much and i love the times we've spent together. i wouldn't trade it for anything at all.

new girl moved in to the other room. then bean2 called for a meeting and discussed about how are we suppose to pay for electricity since we're working people and do not have pc. then the other girl also suggested that i move in with newbie while mrs bean and sin ying can move in together. i don't mind moving in with newbie but i want my room as it has the balcony. the other room doesn't have balcony nor window. newbie said it's up to mrs bean and sin ying to decide as they've been there longer. she even told me that she's seen the single room and it's very small and can only fit a bed. now i'm worried. i think once my cheque is cleared, i'll go see the landlord, pay him the rent and ask to see the single room. i hope it's not as small as what newbie said.

headache...headache...from now on, i'm planning to just get out of the apartment during the weekends and go for holidays. i can't think if i'm in hell. i need to just stay away from the apartment during the weekends.

hooray hooray yahoo yahoo!!!

i'm going back today!!! as if it's something surprising. couldn't really sleep well as expected. at about 8 something or 9pm, this girl came to my apartment saying that she's moving in next monday and were there so have a look at her room. she's going to move into sin ying's room. she's a working girl but she speaks chinese so i don't think i can hang out much with her. i feel happy today and for the rest of the weekend! have to really try to find out how to inform the guests on the surprise birthday party. as i'm not driving my car back, i'll have to find an alternative way to get around. hope everything turns out well.

tomorrow is the day!!!

had a good dinner last night. at first i thought i had to eat magee again as i don't have much cash. but the "leader" of the apartment ie bean2, asked me whether i want to eat dinner as she was cooking so i said ok. she cooked fried fish, seaweed soup, potato ketchup and some fried dumpling thingy. it was surprisingly good. it was only me, bean2 and sin ying. mrs bean had gone back hometown and i didn't know where were the rest last night. we didn't talk much. bean2 just asked whether the food was good and whether i was full. sin ying didn't speak as usual.

i can't believe i'll be in melaka tomorrow! i just can't wait. i might not be able to sleep tonight probably due to over-excitement. the thing that i'm most afraid is the rain. it's been raining very heavily for the past few days. i just hope everything goes on well tomorrow...fingers crossed :D

of dsai, food and melaka!

today is a good day..found out that datuk seri anwar ibrahim won the by-election in permatang pauh. he won by a majority of 15671 votes, much more than when his wife contested during the march 8 election! it clearly shows that the people want major changes in malaysia and that they're fed-up with all the rasuahs, sodomy and all the nonsense thats been going on in the past few years. i hope dsai will be able to keep up with his promises like harga minyak turun, equality among various races,etc. if he can do it, then it shows that he is in fact capable to lead the country without any dirty tricks.

without including today, there'll be 2 more days before i'm officially back home! i'm just so super excited! i can't wait to eat laksa, noodle soup, mee rebus, roti john, wan tan mee, yong tau foo, char kuey teow, satay celup, chicken rice!, and all the delicious food in melaka! thinking about it makes me so hungrrry now...

got to know from my mummy that next tuesday is a public holiday for melaka for the puasa thingy. asked a few peoples here whether its a public holiday in selangor and the answer is a big fat NO! lousy place! if i didn't hear wrongly, ms boss said she'll let me off at 4.30pm this friday cos she thought i'll be driving back. yahoo to me. if like that then i'll be able to reach mlk early. double yahoo!

vitamin and chicken rice

yesterday ms boss asked me to follow her and her husband for lunch. i couldn't think of an alasan to avoid their offer so i accepted. we went to section 17 nearby my place and had chicken rice. while we were eating she asked about my health and i said i'm easily affected by dirty food. so after lunch, they stopped at a nearby pharmacy and bought some vitamins and even bought for me a garlic oil supplement. i offered to pay but they didn't want to accept. they're just too nice and i cannot tahan people who are too nice to me la. so i've made a decision to stop accepting their offers and try my best to come up with various alasans to avoid their lunch offers. when i go back this friday (3 more days to go...yay!!!) i'll ask mum to bake something for them and also give them some kaya or something. just to balas balik la. i know the only right thing is to treat them to lunch when i get my pay but i can't afford to waste my money la. i need it for my own expenses and also for my savings. so the next best thing to do is to bring some stuff from melaka and give it to them la. like that, i don't need to spend a lot of money and it's also considered as pay back la. aiyo...so susah la...

4...4...4...more days to go!!!

the aikido plan tak jadi though i was silently wishing it did jadi. went to dear tigger's house instead over the weekend. i know i've said that i can't go there since i don't have much money for petrol but i just need to get out of that apartment. we were supposed to go to jusco kepong on saturday night but it was jam halfway through so we cancelled our plan. i guess the jam was partly due to the small decrease in petrol price. anyway on sunday, we went to cheras to bring his sister back. before going back to sungai buloh, we stopped at brickfields and had nasi briyani for lunch. upon finishing my rice, i had this very very bad stomach ache. it felt almost like someone is poking a sharp knife into my stomach and i was sweating even though it was so cold due to rain. and then i felt like vomitting and so they had to stop at the nearby petrol station. and true enough, every bit of the nasi briyani came out. immediatly after that, i felt so so much better. tigger said it might be because of the oil in the nasi briyani. at the moment, i really hate the food in kl. i'm glad i'll be able to cook on my own soon. since i've moved here, i've gotten sick so many times i can't be bothered to count.

mrs bean will be having her study break for 2 weeks and she'll be going back to her hometown this week. and then she'll be sitting for her exams in september and have 3 months holiday. which means she'll be back end of the year or next year. (no comment!...joy in silent...)

i failed my finance paper but passed my secretaryship with merit. now, i have only that finance paper to resit and i'm done. goodness gracious...if only i passed that finance paper then there is not need to sit for anymore exams...

can't wait to go back...can't wait to go back...can't wait to go back...

7 days i.e. 1 weeeeekkk....

i cleaned the mighty dirty toilet yesterday and mop my side of the room and am feeling a little comfortable now. at least i dun feel yucky but i do hope that they'll maintain it... oh what the hell am i talking... of course they wont maintain it! i'll be the one cleaning it every week. gosh...what a life..

work is progressing quite well. i learned a lot from ms boss. she always teach me stuff but sometimes i wish she'll give me work in the morning or after lunch instead of 1 hour before 5.30pm. i need to go back to rest yo...

i think...

i think...i might not be moving to the other room after all. i've given it some thought and concluded that i do not want to move there. the reason being... my bill for this month was rm10 which is the cheapest i can get. i do not know what "special rate" the other apartment might offer me cos in the other room i was thinking of bringing a tv and that might just up my bills. so i just need to suffer for 2 years just to save on bills and stuff. as one of my motto is "suffer now, comfort later" (tee hee), i'll just have to shut up and go on with my life.

p/s: oh ya...8 days to go!!!

p/ss: change of plan with the rileen's mum thingy. i'm planning to ask aunty pat instead to bring them out on the surprise day. hope she says yes...

9 days to go..

dad called last night and told me about the possibility of few of the aikido members coming up to kl for a training session this sunday.i'm so excited to be seeing at least a few familiar faces from melaka but it's not confirm yet.he said he would update me about it.i hope it goes according to the plan then at least i have something to do this weekend.

dad also told me that they've already bought a rice cooker for me.thank you mummy and daddy.once i get it,i won't need to waste money buying yucky food from the shops.

my surprise party is going on surprisingly well.i've bought the cards to be given to the guests.i'm so excited about it.these things keeps me sane especially with all the problems in the apartment.at least i have something to do to keep my mind away from the problems.

uti

i was feeling unwell last friday at about 5 in the morning. it lasted the whole morning and finally i couldn't take it so told the Boss that i wanted to go back at 1pm. as soon as i left, i went to dear tigger's place and he brougth me to the clinic. turns out, i have the urinary tract infection...again. second time this year but the first one was much more worst than this. so the weekend was practically spent at home while tigger cooked for me. thanks ya dear for taking care of me. 'll treat you to a movie date and makan at chilli's at klcc on the 13th of sept for your being a graduate.

i couldn't believe it! another 10 days and i'm back to my sweet heaven!!! i'm counting the days and am just so excited! i've still a lot to do with regards to my surprise party. as soon as i'm back next week i've to meet so many people to inform about the party. in total there are about 18-19 guests and i'm so excited.

this weekend might be a boring one as i'll not be going anywhere. i don't have enough money to spend so am just waiting for pay day...

i'm moving...

i'm moving out of the god-forsaken block and might be moving into block b. i asked my landlord whether there is any available single room and he said it'll only be available towards the end of september. so i told him i want that room. he asked me whether there are any problems with my current room mate or house mates but i just told him i'd just like some privacy. so he said he'll inform me once the girl in the single room moves out. yay!!! i'm so happy for the first time since i was here. can't wait for the day i finally move out.

there are a few changes as to the surprise party. i might ask the guests to bring their own food, pot luck style. the reason is because i cant manage to go prepare the food as i'm in pj. i'll only be back the day before the surprise day so i don't have much time to prepare the food. i've also asked andrea and she said i can put up at her place the night before. so everything's going on pretty well. the only thing left is to inform the guests and the plan with rileen's mum. need to get her number. hope my plan will be a success! :D

dirty unsexy ass! (in connection with the show"dirty sexy money")

last night was not a good night for me.first of all, i was out for a while and when i got back, i found out that someone took a crap in the toilet and did not flush!!! it was so horrible and disgusting. i mean, they are girls but couldn't behave like one. i just hate when girls do that. it's excusable for guys but ah...i just couldn't believe it. the culprit might be my mrs bean cos she was the only one in the apartment. but i just kept it to myself. disgusting people. i just feel like running away from that place. i need to stay there for 6 months in order to get back my deposit. i really don't know what to do.
then later that night, i was about to sleep and the 3 kecoh girls came back and made so much of noise that i just couldn't sleep. argghhh.....i couldn't take it! furthermore my mrs bean refuse to switch off the lights when she saw me lying down almost going to dreamland. she continued doing nonsense on her computer. i mean please be considerate la. i'm working ok. i need to sleep early and wake up early in order to be the first to use the toilet in the morning. i'm living with a bunch of aliens! this made me miss my home even more. cos my home is super super clean and super super quiet. august 29th...please come faster!!!

missing everything

the weekends were so blah...used the public transport to go to kl on saturday and it wasn't exciting at all. didn't have fun at all. my mrs bean was not in her room for over 4 days already. guess she either went back hometown or put up at a friend's place. anyway, i'm not bothered. might be staying over at dear tigger's place this weekend so am looking forward to it. i need to meet real human after a week of alien association..he he...
anyway, i developing a new hobby to pass my time in this ufo-esque place. its doing research on absolutely anything. right now, my first research would be on the lina joy's case. anything to pass my time huh...blah...

p/s: i miss my mummy, my daddy, my ti ti and my dear tigger :(
p/ss: i miss my house and especially my room...
p/sss: i miss my tv time...

uninteresting week

got back at about almost 10pm the other day cos have to settle all the companies annual return as it was the last day to submit it to roc. actually finish at about 8 something but then have to send boss back near 1 utama cos her husband went back early. before that she belanja me makan roti naan and tandoori chicken near her place. this week will not be nice for me cos i'll be by myself. can't even go to dear tigger's house cos he's teman-ing his mum and brother go to johor as his bro got a new job there. the only interesting thing happening this week is that i might be meeting andrea this coming sunday. but i've to try to take the bus though cos i don't know how to drive to kl. scared i might get lost. right now, i only know how to go to sg buloh, 1 utama and possibly damansara utama. my life during the weekdays would be:
1) going to work
2) go back after work
3) eat my dinner
4) sleep
help! i need my people...i miss my family...i wanna go back ozana impian...i wanna see dear tigger...

my plan to surprise my parents with a birthday party is going on well. i've planned how to go back, how to get the keys, where to stay when i go back the day before and who to invite. the planning stage is going on well la. the execution might be tougher than i think. but hope everything goes well...

ta ta for now. have to work :(

of boredom and party!

i feel bored staying in that apartment. there's just nothing to do and no one to hang out with. no one to chat with. the only "activity" i do there is to wash my clothes and read magazines. what a lousy life. although i know how to go to 1 utama, i don't want to hang out by myself. i'm only waiting for the weekends to arrive so that i can spend time with dear tigger. however this weekend's plans are not confirmed as he might need to follow his brother to johor for 2 weeks. so i'm keeping my fingers crossed and hope that i'm able to see him. speaking of dear tigger, he passed all his papers and the only thing left is training for 4 months and then voila! a graduate! congrats dear. i know i've said i'll belanja you makan for the previous exam but still not yet. dont worry. i'll belanja you big time this time since i'm here. i'm so proud of you...my boy is almost a graduate!!!

i'm planning to have a surprise birthday party for my parents next month. i need to ask my patti to cook as i cant cook. i will invite some of their closest friends over to our house. i hope they'll like it. i'm so excited about it and am already planning for the invitation list and everything. i just want to show them that i appreciate everything they have done for me. i miss them so much.

i wanna go back home!!!

what a beany week...

it's only been a week living in damansara and lots of things have occured. i've learnt a lot from my boss and she and her husband are very nice people. sadly, i cant say the same for my apartment. my room mate is a total anti social. i call her mrs bean as i cant recall her name. the other housemates are also anti social. they just dont talk to me. the toilet is not maintained properly. i felt so disgusted to even put my toiletries there. dear suren was very kind to bring me out. he showed me how to go to 1 utama from my place and also how to go to his place. on friday i straight went to sg buloh after work and i managed to reach there without any difficulty. however on sunday, before i left to go back home we had an argument and i ended up going back full with anger. as a result of that i almost got lost twice. i was so devastated and for a moment thought of just staying away from him cos i didnt want to torture him any further. i have a very bad attitude problem and it took a toll on our relationship. i felt so bad for making him suffer. anyway, i apologised this morning and everything is ok now. i'll try my best to change and be the best girlfriend for him.

new life soon...

i went for a job interview last thursday for the post of company secretarial assistant in pj and they hired me on the spot. i'll start work next monday and i'm quite excited. the reason why i'm only 'quite' excited is because i'm leaving my family here to go live and work in the big city. suren brought me to look for the office and after that we went for house hunting. finally, after looking aroung for a few hours, we decided that this apartment which is near to my new office is the most suitable and safe place for me. it has a security guard and most of the occupants are chinese university students. so on saturday, me, mum and adrian went to see the apartment and it was quite ok. i'm going to share a room with a chinese girl and she looks a little unfriendly. but my mission is to go there to work so i'll bear with it. i'm a little sad to leave my family here but i hope everything will be alright when i'm not here.

my new boss is ms rebecca ho and she's quite alright. currently she has only 1 staff but she's leaving end of the month. rebecca's actually looking for 2 staffs and she said she would be interviewing another person and i hope she hires another one. cos i don't wanna be alone there. she says that once i've gained the necessary experience, she might consider me as a junior partner. i'm glad to hear that. but my mission is to work there for about 3-4 years and then migrate to australia. my aussie dream is still very much alive. i hope this will be a good experience for me and everything will go on well.

this post is dedicated to my parents who were always there for me when i needed them and guide me through every step in my life. i promise to work hard for them to provide them with everything they need. also to suren who was kind enough to bring me all the way from kl to pj just to look for the office and houses. i love you all so much and i promise to give my all for this job.

my twisted and thorny durian life

angel is so confused now. i need someone to guide me and tell me what to do. i'm going crazy. i don't know what to do. if i do it, will it be wrong and disrecpectful? i hope he can tell me what to do tmrw. i know we are not close now but i really need his opinion. i need the light at the end of the tunnel!!!

i need a sign

angel is sick and tired of all the arguments and fights. please stop all these nonsense before i go crazy. think of me and boy. think of all the ups and downs you guys went through. is it all meaningless to you? you've been together for 26 years and you still behave like this. aren't you guys suppose to set a good example to me and boy? i'm going to do something drastic in the next few days and if it doesn't work then i don't know what else i can do. i hope i'm doing the right thing. i hope no one gets angry with me for the thing that i'm going to do after this. i just want everyone and everything to get back to the way it should be.

bitch & bastard

today i'm going to blog about my eff-ing life during my college time. although it was the place where i met my baby, it was also one of the worst place on earth. there are a few people that i wanna trash and the reason why i'm doing this is to end it once and for all. after this, i'm not gonna feel sad or angry about anymore.

first up...the bitch...this is one girl which i do not recommend anyone to be friends with. girls, dont befriend her and guys, dont be fooled by her 'innocent' and 'crybaby' attitude. it's just to gain your sympathy. but thanks to her, i've learnt my lesson and am now more careful when making friends with other girls. dear bitch, thanks for trying to ruin my life and trying to steal my bf. thanks for all your shameless tears and lame gifts. thanks for getting me into hell when you tried to pair me up with that lame-o stalker. thanks for almost ruining my beloved cousin's life too. gosh, i didn't expect you to be bitchy towards my cousin when you were 12!!! do you think i wouldn't know anything about it? do you think i'm as stupid as you think? i hope someday someone would try to steal your bf (if you ever have one) and then you'll know my feelings. thanks for all the gifts you gave to my bf. somehow i just knew you are a perempuan gatal. i know all your schemes of trying to pair up with bf on THAT night just so you could show everyone that you are a match for him instead of me and trying to be nice and all towards him. oh yeah, thanks also for telling everyone lies about me. think i didnt know that hah... just be careful someday you'll get bitten in the ass and i will laugh at you non-stop, you silly-ass bitch.

secondly, is that bastard stalker. you stalked me for more than 2 years and you're lucky i didnt report you to the police (i almost did though). i think you're a creep and i hope i dont ever see you again. because of you, almost everyone blamed ME for your failure in the exams. because of you, most lecturers were on your fucking side instead of my side. because of you, i did not enjoy myself at both the kl trips and the pengkalan balak trip. because of you, a car scratched my mum's car. you basically ruined my life which was already destroyed by the bitch above. anyways, good luck in your life and please stay away from me. i will never ever lend you a helping hand if you ever need one. good riddance!!!

ok, after this i'm not going to speak of these 2 idiots anymore. i've poured out all my feelings and thats the end of it. i feel a lot better now. the moral of the story is be careful when choosing friends and know your limit. i learnt it the hard way and hopefully no one will go through what i've went through.

tengah betulkan his underwear...

it's been a long time since my last post. well, many things happened. i quit my job in moi teik seng & partners after 2 months as i had to do lots of revision in may. exam was in june and it was ok. i hope i'll pass. i'm actually quite confident. mr damian asked me to work for him in his firm as a legal executive but i rejected it. eventhough he had long term plans for me, the salary was not what i had expected. i asked for rm1600 but guess how much he wanted to pay me....

rm750-rm850!!!

i was like....whattt...i almost vomit blood...it was wayyy to low lah cos i've to drive from bkt katil to mlk raya ok...petrol price already gone up so it's quite ridiculous lah to offer me that amount. some more he said yearly only increase 10%. how to survive lah... so i've already applied for a few jobs in kl lah. i have no choice but to go there lah eventhough i don't like kl. the prospect there is much better than melaka lah...also got more chance for growth... anyway hopefully i get the job that i want la.. i need a job with good pay la cos i'm already 24 years old...need to earn money for myself, for my family and for future la..

right now, i'm just relaxing la..adrian came back the other day. i was so happy to see him after such a long time but i didn't show my excitement la..malu lah..he has grown up a lot and i just hope he'll continue growing up into a fine young man. i just love him so much.

kareena and anjali-my 2 favourite kids