sometimes when u feel like everything is in order and blissful, something or rather someone will come to destroy it. when u r at the point where no one can help u, what do u do? give up or continue this damn fucking life?

i'm currently at a very low point in my life right now. i've made the necessary complains and all but it is still the same. what can i do? where can i go? i hope someone can come hold my hand and save me from this mess. i admit there are times when i feel like ending my life. since no one can help me, the only thing i can do is to go away from this earth.

i complained to tigger but there's nothing he can do. all he can offer is advice. i complained to mum but there's nothing she can do. in fact i think she's a little fed up with me. everytime i call her i feel like she just cant wait to put down the phone. am i such a disappointment to u? am i really embarassing to u? i complained to hairen but there's also nothing she can do. i complained to sara and andrea but nothing...

should i end my life just so everyone can live in peace? so that they dont need to hear my complains anymore? every second, all i can hear in my mind is die...die...die...

i'm sick and tired of all this... i need to end this... now.