the story of my love life (nothing geli or mushy la)

since there is no update in my boring life right now, let me tell the story of how tigger and i met. it was in 2003 when we first met. i remember we became friends during the time when we were rehearsing for the marching for merdeka day. i had so much fun talking and joking with him. then he told FV that things will not be "happening" if i'm not around. i got a little excited la. but were still friends that time la. then on the 1st of january 2004, we met up and he said that he doesn't want to be close to me anymore cos he said he he's not a good person and that hanging out with him would ruin my reputation (haha... i didn't even know i had a reputation in that college!). he said that from that time onwards we would just limit ourselves to hi and bye. so i accepted that "request" and went back home and bawled like a baby. i even discussed this with my bro and he said that if a guy does this sort of thing, it means he likes the girl. so, the next few days, whenever he's around i would hide myself either in the class or more often, in the toilet. i was so shy to even look at him in the eye. then i realised that if i really want to be his friend again, i should work towards it and fight for it. so i did. i request to meet up with him and told him that he's not the only one who had done a lot of bad things and i'm not as innocent as i look. it was the most horrifying moment at that time for me. in the end, he said ok and we became friends again. i realised after that that he was much nicer and closer to me after that. then in february, on his birthday, i treated him to rennaisance hotel's buffet lunch and gave him a pair of parker pen as his present. the next day, while we were outside the college talking to a friend, he held my hand for the first time. at that point, i froze. of course la, first time a guy hold my hand ok. and i was so shy i didn't even look at him. we just continued holding hands and talk to that friend. that was the beginning of us. after that, we were always together everywhere. people in the college knew about us but i know some of them dengki and don't like seeing us together.

we had our ups and downs also la. the ones i can remember is the 2 idiots. no point mentioning their name cos they are not worth mentioning. i will feel like as though i'm giving them credit. anyway, those 2 idiots were mentioned earlier in this blog when i wanted to release my anger. besides that we had a lot of small small problems la. then when he went to genting to work, i cried like a baby again la. it was hard not having him around. i remembered a time when he came to melaka to see me then when it was time for him to go back to genting, i cried at the bus station. even the bus driver asked me to follow into the bus. it was really funny la now come to think about it.

the biggest obstacle for us came last year. i can't really mention it here to protect tigger's rep but it was a really bad time for us in august 2007. that was the time i almost tried to commit suiside (which is really stupid, i know) but luckily i didn't. it was a stupid decision on tigger's part to be involved in such a dangerous and serious matter but it all turned out well. he repented and after that, he never really trust people easily. i was also involved with a problem of my own. i call it my rebellious period cos i was hanging out with this bunch of losers who likes to tani all the time. i guess i needed attention. one of them liked me but i came to senses and said i have to stop hanging out with them. so i did and things became much better for the both of us after that. both of us made a bad decision but we came out of it with lessons learned.

i guess we are like husband and wife now. except we don't stay together. we've gone thorugh a lot and i guess nothing can break us up as we've gone through the worst of times and we're still together. our relationship is defined by who we really are. not like the couples we see nowadays. we're comfortable with ourselves and we don't pretend to be someone we're not. i can burp and belch in front of him without feeling shy or embarassed. that's what made us stay together for almost 5 years now. i hope we can be together till the end of time as i can't find anyone else who understands me as much as he does.

there goes the story of my love. thank yous.