well its been a while since i last wrote. many things hapenned (as usual)..first up, man. utd. went for the training and game..it was good seeing my parents at the game....was so happy to see them..
i've been thinking a lot about my life the past few weeks. tigger told me that there is a possibility that his parents will go see my parents end of this year to talk about engagement and marriage. of course hearing bout this made me feel happy but i still have a lot on my mind like money and where are we going to settle down, etc....and then there is the subject of children. i'm not sure how many i want but i hope all my future children will be happy having me and tigger as parents. of course i want them to have the best education, best home, best life possible...but i'm not sure whether i want to raise them in this country...i'm still keeping my dream of starting a family in australia or new zealand...actually coem to think of it, any good country would do...dont get me wrong, i love this country but the things that have been going on for the past few years is really making me sick...today was the day that made me reassure myself that i wont be raising my children here when i saw the clip of a few men beating up a guy in police custody. there was speculation that it was "tbh" but it was quite blur so it was hard to decipher...but that clip was really out of the line and i promise myself that i wont raise my children here and i might also want my parents to come live with me (whichever country i choose to live in the future)..of course tigger's parents might not want us to move to another country but......(we'll see)...i really dont know about my future...i always have a plan for myself for the future but this time its all a blur and i cant really pull myself together to make any plans at all as i really dont know where to start....
on a lighter note, i got a raise in my salary although it was not equivalent to the amount of suffering i've to go through...hmmm...its been a year working here and i've gone through shit but i'm still surviving....i've become stronger and more patient...i really dont know how long will i be in this firm or where i'll be heading in the future but i guess no matter what, i'll survive..i will be able to go through it...i just hope everything goes well for me....
i miss mummy and daddy so much....its been a month since i last went back home...i miss my home and my real bed....
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